The Bright Light

A.J. couldn't sit still while waiting in the hallway. He was trying to keep up with the texts coming in from Violet's friends and family members and even popped on facebook a few times to see if there was anything there that would lead her to do such a reckless move. The Doctor came out... "the baby is fine but Violet is not." A.J. sat down and berried his head into his hands while the Doctor continued to say, " Violet has slipped into a coma. We delivered the baby via C-section and so she is quite sore from that and having her stomach pumped. We hope she wakes up soon but the longer she's out the more damage is being done." A.J. stood up quickly as the Doctor began to walk away. "WAIT, can I see the baby? Was it a boy or girl?" The doctor looked down at his files and flipped through a few papers. "Well the baby is being monitored for 24 hours then SHE can go home with her foster mom." The Doctor again began to walk away and A.J. stopped him. "What do you mean foster mom?" The Doctor sighed and fixed his glasses, "look Ashley, I don't make the rules I simply have to follow them. Because your girlfriend took her son's pain pills and almost killed herself WHILE pregnant makes things look bad for her. DHS was contacted and they are now taking actions. A case has been building. Violet is a single mom, sleeping with many men, and has had a NUMBER of criminals around her children. It will but up to the state of Texas if Violet is able to get her baby back and keep the kids that are living with her at this moment.

A.J. walked into Violet's hospital room. He admired her strength that it took to get her this far. He quickly got Violet's sister on the phone and asked her to fight for custody of the new baby girl that Violet just had. He then sat and waited as he watched the woman of his dreams sleep in a world of endless dreams....

Violet sat up and had continued throbbing in her head. Her feet where numb and hands where shaking. "Took a nasty fall didn't you dear?" Asked a woman in the room. "Yes, I guess I did Violet responded with receiving help from the woman.

Violet- Thank you, Are you my nurse? Violet asked before looking up
Betty- No dearest... There is only 1 person in the world who loves you more than I do and that's God.
Violet looked up- MOM? Oh my gosh mom, I've missed you so much.
Betty- I've missed you too. I'm so proud of you and everything that you are doing. 
Violet- Am I dead?
Betty- Not exactly, you are in a place between life and death. You get to choose if you allow your body to slip into the after life or if you continue living. This is not a choice that can be made for you dear.

Violet- Well mom I want to be with you, the pain would be gone, the feeling of being lost and confused would be gone and I've lost so much... What do I have left to live for.
Betty- Well you know that you have all your children that love you beyond words and you love them in return. Think about your little one's living with out a mom. Its not as simple as just saying I've had enough.
Violet- I don't even remember anything other than my head hurting. How did I get here?

Betty- You took to many of Alick's pain pills. 
Violet- NO... NO I... I... Attempted Suicide?
Betty- Violet, I wish I could give you all the answers I truly do. But I guess if you choose life you will find out the answers for yourself now wouldn't you?
Violet- Mom, I don't think I'm strong enough to do that. My life has become more of a struggle. I can't take care of my kids, I can't keep a boyfriend, and my friends... well I don't have time for them anymore.

Violet- Have you ever felt like you where standing in a room with 1,000 people yet you still feel alone? I feel like that EVERY time I wake up, EVERY time I do anything. I feel alone, empty, and cold. I thought I could age gracefully like Della A. She has it all the 100 kids, husband who loves her, and friends that have always been there from day 1. What do I have?
Betty- You have a choice... Life is a journey, you never know when you will get a flat tire or run out of gas but do you stop the journey? No, you keep going. You call for help, you change the course, and you even make mistakes but it wouldn't be a journey worth remembering if it was ALWAYS perfect. Oh my dearest Violet, you have something that many wish they had.
Violet- And what is that mom?
Betty- A CHANCE... A chance to go back and finish the journey you started.

Betty- Its time, I know that you will do what is best for you. Happy Mother's Day dearest. I wish that I could have fought harder...
Violet- Happy Mother's Day Mom


A wind blew through the room and a familiar voice echoed. "Come on Betty, you need to go now." Betty caressed her daughter's face and then turned towards the voice, "I'm coming mother!" Violet stood confused until she then saw who it was. "GRANDMA?" Violet said beginning to smile.

Violet had a hard decision to make and was about to walk with her mom and grandma into the bright light when she thought about her children. The sound of giggles, home made paintings, singing songs, wiping noses, and all the other moments that make being a mom worth living for. Hugging both her grandma and mom she then walked away from them saying, "I made my choice... I love you."

A.J. left Violet's side off and on to hear of progress on custody of Violet's newest child and getting a lawyer to take on Violet's case with DHS. A.J. was replaying the whole situation is his mind. He remembered seeing a bottle of Tylenol on the counter. Maybe this wasn't suicide... maybe she the pain was to much for her to think and she accidentally took the wrong kind of medicine. 


A nurse walked into the room and stated that the foster mom had arrived and that Violet's daughter was now being released early and was leaving. A.J. sprang from his seat, "can I take a picture of her? What did you name her? Will Violet have contact with the foster family and her daughter?" A.J.'s questions didn't made the nurse look up from her clip board. "I'm sorry sir but I can't answer those questions. You are not a blood relative or the dad so you have no say." 

A.J. began to rant off while no one was in the room, COME ON Barbie... I know that you have had a depressing last few weeks but please don't stop fighting. You say that you are alone, but your support system is bigger than any I've seen. Your facebook is FLOODED with people asking if you are ok. No one wants you to give up and you CAN'T give up... Come on Violet WAKE UP!


Violet- o.k. 
A.J. Jumped to his feet...-  Violet? Can you hear me?
Violet- Yes
A.J.- Oh my gosh Barbie... YOU'RE ok... YOU'RE alive!
Violet- and sore


A.J. offered to help Violet sit up. She needed to be careful since she was still recovering from her c-section. With tears in his eyes A.J. helped Violet to her feet.

A.J. just admired Violet as she stood to her feet with little to no help. She felt her head and then her stomach. "My baby... where is my baby?" she asked looking up at A.J. He hesitated to answer but that made Violet think the worst. "I killed it? Oh dear God did I kill the baby?" She said covering her mouth. "NO, no the baby is fine... SHE is fine! but since you where admitted because of an "suicide attempt" she's been placed in foster care until you can regain strength and get her back. I know its not ideal but I know that she will be ok and we WILL get her back."

Violet stood looking at A.J. "We? you said WE will get her back" Violet questioned. "Yes Barbie, I said we... I'm NEVER going to let you leave my side again... Violet Jane Newbie I don't want to take another breath if it means I can't have you. The world is to horrible a place to not have someone like you to have in it. Will you marry me?" 

The pause in time was as if the whole world stopped. Violet's eyes danced between A.J.'s as she began to answer.  "I want to marry you, I want to be Mrs. Violet Jane Newbie Lemi, but I started this journey and I want to finish it." A.J. smiled "We can be engaged while you finish, I won't get jealous, I won't get upset, if it means I get to have you all to myself once you have 101 children."

Violet started to cry when she replied to A.J.'s question... Yes, my answer is yes!

Hello everyone- 

First of all Violet and I would like to thank you for your support at this difficult time.

We are very excited about planning our wedding and getting baby 84 back into our

loving home. Yes Violet and I have decided to move in together. 

Violet is still in recovery and has to be monitored 24/7 since she is now on the high

risk list. That's basically a list they put patients on that have attempted suicide and are suffering from depression. We have found a great lawyer to take on Violet's case and hope to have more updates soon. Lacey is right now taking care of Violet's kids.

thank you for reading,

Ashely James Lemi