Thankful~ Baby 44

So as I sit here and Thanksgiving is quickly approaching I'm brought to several things in mind. After almost giving up this challenge I've decided to keep plugging away and not let my insecurity's and hardships bring me down. I've decided that threw this post I will be listing 30 things that I'm thankful for. I've had allot of sadness but I've had MANY joys. here are 10/30:

1) My parents may they R.I.P. I just got word the other day that my mom passed on and I'm happy that she is now with my father and little Dawn.
2) Zara Newbie, because she was my very first child I EVER saw. I was hooked and knew at that moment that this challenge was going to be what I needed to do not just for me but for the world.
3) All the dad in the past, present, and future! I couldn't succeed with this if I didn't have dad's who where willing to participate.
4) my boys and yes I CAN list them all name by name but won't. I'm thankful for my boys because they have taught me more about myself as a "father figure" I've done my best to fill in that daddy spot for those dad's who participated but didn't want to have anything to do with their children. 
5) FACEBOOK, yes Facebook because it is there that I've found so many of my followers and people acutally are reading what I'm writing that is just AWESOME to me. I'm proud to say I now have 215 friends on my facebook page and the requests keep coming. WOW that is incredible to me.
6) Della Wriner, if it weren't for you Della my challenge would not be who or even what I am today. You are a good friend and supporter of me, my ideas, and new things to come.
7) Vanessa Wood, she and I both thought our challenges where over because of technical difficulties but she decided to start things where she left off the best she could and I raise my hat to her. I followed in her footsteps but in a different way and here I am with 43 ALMOST 44 kids. Thanks Nessa
8) www.thesims3.com's exchange, although its not always 100% safe to use it I'm thankful for it because MY stuff is safe and so now I can be in other challenge mom's games and embark on adventures with them in their sims world. 
9) Dawn Turner, GIRL you make me laugh! I can't get over how funny you are and the best part is that I never know when its coming. You have shown me how sometimes you have to just smile and I can now because I have you!
10) The sims3 creators because well without them we wouldn't have this AWESOME game that we are so addicted to.

The Twin Pageant hosted by: Dawn Turner

I've been sad since Dawn's gone and I heard about Dawn's pageant and decided NOT to do it. I have no energy to hardly take care of myself let alone get the girls dressed, happy, and pose for pictures. I went to bed after crying myself to sleep and I heard the kids all moving around but lucky for me Lars and Laytin where more than willing to step up to the plate. I then saw this on the kitchen table with a note. The boys wanted the girls to be in the pageant and so THEY took the pictures of them and got them ready for the pageant. WOW I think they did a great job and I'm really happy that they did. Even if the girls don't win I KNOW that they will forever have these pictures and THAT is special.

Little Della was working hard to get strait A's because she wants to age up early and move out when Lars and Laytin do. "Come on Della what is the answer...?" Della asked herself while focusing as hard as she could. Laytin then came over to help her out so that they could all get ready for bed.

I got online and found a great support group for single mom's who have lost a child to death or some other reason. I found a girl named Ivy Retroar. She lost twin boys in a car accident and was new to the support grew as was I. I also remembered Nessa loosing her kids to a horrific car accident, but while chatting with Ivy she told me about a memorial she did for her boys so that she could always remember the love she had for them. I was up till the early hours of the day working on mine and when I finally finished it I was able to smile. I hope that you enjoy this tribute to my amazing daughter Dawn Newbie.

Next is 11-20 of the things I'm thankful for

11) Good health, I'm so lucky to have never been sick (other than for pregnancy) I'm a healthy eater and I've been working out regularly since I was a teenager. 

12) Being able to work from home so that I can be hands on with my kids. I love that my hours are flexible and easy to manage while raising my children.

13) Our house is something that I'm VERY thankful for. WOW to think that this house is so small and we are working on fixing it up but its not easy and I've been struggling with it since I'm not as strong as most MEN who build houses.

14) I'm SO thankful to have my BF's next door to me. I or when they are in town they rent the house next to me. We are all working with a few people to help us design the ultimate get away place. and right across the street are Asher and Joe its nice to have guys close by. 

15) Ashby Starr is someone who is so incredibly awesome. She's been threw so much since her challenge started and is still not giving up on the search of her cousin Harmony. I think that Ashby is a wonderful mom and a true friend. Thanks girl I luv ya.

16) My CAR IS FIXED I've been using a loaner for awhile now lol because I messed my real car up pretty bad. I hardly drive it but when I do I guess I'm not very nice to it, but I hope to change.

17) My computer is very important to me and yes I'm thankful for it because its how I communicate with EVERYONE. I love it and I love that I just bought one for the house so I don't have to go to the library to use theirs anymore.

18) Ok so you may or may not have noticed that I have only a few store bought paintings and MOST of my paintings are by my kids. So I'm VERY thankful for creative and artistic kids to decorate my home. I LOVE when I look at a picture and I can say "WOW (child's name) painted this for me!

19) Texting, I'm VERY new to this but I get more and more used to it everyday! I get texts form kids, friends, and fans.

20) Judge Anthony Brewer for rewarding me with $219 when I sued for slander. I was mad that a rumor the WASN'T true was being spread around town. I know, I know you now want to know the rumor SO here it is. I was "found" rummaging threw garbage cans... YEAH RIGHT I don't have time to even visit the junk yard let alone go threw other people's garbage. 

I was was just about ready to start thinking about checking on the laundry when I got a text from a guy named Allen Owen. I had never heard of him but he told me that he KNOW'S he's heard of me. Thats something I'm used to here in SV because I'm a mom doing the 101 baby challenge AND I'm now to a *** celebrity status YES I know I couldn't believe it either. I've been feeling so much better after making that very special tribute for Dawn that when Allen asked me if I had room for him in my challenge I was a little hesitant to do so but I told him I would make my FINAL decision after meeting him face to face.

We hit it off right away and I thought that Allen would be a great dad to have in my challenge. He needed to get started quickly because he had to work soon and had a VERY important job. I didn't leave him hanging and we woo hooed and heard the lullaby. And I was thrilled that baby 44 is ON BOARD!

We both got dressed and I was eager to know more about Allen's job. Thats when he dropped the bomb...
Allen-Hey guess what? *laughs
Me- What hun?
Allen- I'm a member of Paparazzi Pals and YOU'RE my next celebrity I'm going to cover. *laughing and guess what I'm going to have an AWESOME piece to write about now THANKS GIRLY! 
I was so mad I couldn't believe he tricked me. I then realized that the joke was on him because he was NEVER going to see his son or daughter if he was going to expose them to the media at a young age. I'm NOT willing to put my children threw that.

I walked over to Jasper where he laid so quiet and still. I wanted so badly to just keep him small forever but I know that this isn't possible. I fed him and cuddled him I then though about my kids and how much I love them. I'm SO thankful to have a great group of kids. 

What where you DOING calling Elvira? You know that I like her and you know that I'm thinking about asking her out. Laytin why don't you THINK anymore?

Hey bud I HATE to break it to you but she texted me and asked me what my favorite sport was. I told her and that was it. And maybe I like her too did you EVER think about that one.

I started to relax on the bed and YES my baby bump is showing more so than normal but I'm 100% sure that its a single birth!!!

I then got up to check on Jasper and got to thinking about my friends and their challenges. I was so lucky to have friends who loved me and my kids. They are my best support system and without them I'm nothings. I want to take this moment and share this FUN video with you. I have so many more pictures that I wanted to add but I guess I will save them for next time.

21) I'm thankful for my daughters, they are so amazingly different and all so special, unique and brilliant in different fields. I remember holding my precious Zara for the first time. It felt amazing and ever since her every single girl gets me excited like I'm a kid again to just got the toy she's been wanting.
22) My Movie Windows Live Movie Maker! Yes I know its and odd thing to be thankful for but I love using it and I'm able to share so many video's with everyone. I made my first one for Landon and Cadence. And now I've made 2 more!!!
23) My Followers, you are what keeps me going. If you weren't reading this I wouldn't be putting in such an effort into it. I probably would have even quite at some point so thank you for reading my blog!
24) Alyssa Lamont, You make such neat pictures and your always willing to share them with all of us mom's wow thanks girl I love them and will keep them for always.
25) I'm very thankful to have the very same crib I had when I was a baby. Not many challenge mom's can say that and it was important to me and my mom for it to be passed down.
26) I'm thankful for being able to have a GED thats right after dropping out of school and having so much trouble as a teen I've taken online classes and I'm a proud owner of a GED!!!
27) Pizza, Ice cream and pie I love them and they make me happy.
28) I'm thankful for..... hmmm I'm now having to think a bit more. oh I got it our door activities. We now (again) don't have a tv in our house and I'm not sure we need one when the kids are always playing outside.
29) Late night chats... Yes I've spent many hours on the chat and at night I will be talking to 1 or many mom's and we will all have a blast.
30) My Kids, Friends, and my creator. You see she is the reason why I'm here and boy am I happy that she has given this opportunity to me!!!

I wanted to add that I've also decided to take part in my 2nd pageant. I was pregnant in these pictures but not showing yet. I had a great time and Joe took these pictures of me. What a guy I hope that he changes his mind soon and joins my challenge. I bet we would have a kid/kids together. but I guess he DOES have that girlfriend so I will sit back and wait for HIM to be ready.

Laura and Della where playing peek-a-boo and sining songs. Della is going to be a wonderful mom someday but she's even told me that kids will have to wait till AFTER a decent job and a husband are present. She's beyond hard on her self yet she's so smart and kind. I just wish she could relax a little.

I was looking out of the telescope and wanted to try to find a star to name after Dawn then my memorial for her would be complete. I didn't find one tonight but I'm not giving up till I do.

While I was working on my blog I got a shooting pain in my stomach and realized that the baby might be coming soon. I stood up and yes I was right the contractions where coming faster and faster I wasn't sure I was ready but I knew a home birth and no phone call to dad was key. This babies delivery HAD to be all me.

Nevaeh Rose Newbie

5lb 3oz 19inchs

A Little Miracle

After Nevaeh's birth I was more than ready to do a picture video of my kids. This is a long one and so I'm sorry for that and the music changes between 2 songs so please bear with that. Thank you for reading and my Thanksgiving post will be out soon (I hope) But I have to have Thanksgiving here before I can post anything about it!

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR READING MY THANKFUL BLOG ENTRY

AND GOD BLESS